Being blind is what I want for my future... I wanna be blind, I want God to be my guiding stick. If you would have asked me what I wanted for my future before I was christian I would say I wanted to be a mother and have a perfect cute husband and have a great job which payed a lot... But God changes the way you see yourself, I see myself as a beautiful young lady that wants to serve the Lord and I see myself blind to the future. I don't want to be in control anymore, I'm giving up my past present and future to God... Its an amazing experience to forget about yourself. Its not about me anymore its about God and my neighbors. I stopped caring and worrying about myself I'm rich in faith and I'm here to bring my neighbors to Jesus. Trusting for me is hard. Trusting Jesus is easy for me because I know that he loves me and wants the best for me, but trusting my fellow brothers and sisters, now that's hard. I've grown up knowing I cant trust anyone. I can only count 5 people that I do trust. that's sad really really sad. I'm going to have to change that. I need to trust more people. I'm trusting Jesus with my heart and I know he's not going to hurt me.I'll continue to pray about that... God loves me and he will guide me well.. sure every now and then I'll stumble and fall but that guide stick will always be there for me to lean on to get up and I thank God for letting me lean on him when I cant get up myself. God is good! <3